EDIT: I know this entry might of offended some people like alot of bit. But, what I simply meant was friends that I can hang out with and all my friends have excuses... IE: HAYLEE WORKS ALL THE DAMN TIME THEEND.
I am so sick and tired of not having friends. When I'm always sitting around doing nothing with my time but wasting away and depending on people who want to go online for a bit to keep me a bit of company, I think that's sad. I have recently obtained two new friends. Not really new, just started talking to again. I can't hang out with neither. Why? Because they are a male. It's sad really. It's like I have a part of me who lives an online life; where I'm friends with everyone and can talk to everyone. And then, I shrink down to a piece of shit when I leave my computer and realize all these friends I have I can't hang out with any of them. I have plenty of reasons. I could probably come up with numerous reasons. I just wish I could be friends with people and it not be problem for ANYONE. But that will not of course ever happen and I'll sit here miserably. everynight when I'm bored and lonely.. I always always think of this shit. That's why every night I end up going to bed in a bad mood. I LIKED when I had to like plan out my days. It was so fun and everything was jampacked and I had no time for this shit. To sit around and think about shit. I HATE IT. I LOVE my boyfriend so much, and I understand why he doesn't want to me to hang out with any of my male friends but I just wish I could. I just wish there weren't any rules or restrictions that come along with a relationship. I try so hard to be the best girlfriend in the world and not to slip up. I let him go with his friends whenever he wants. (While I sit around doing nothing.) I give him any amount of money he asks for. I buy him whatever he wants if I know he really wants it, I pull connections out of my ass to help him. I listen to whatevers on his mind, and do whatever he asks me to do.
I just wish I had friends is all. I have one friend. Her name is Kendra. And she's so busy, she rarely has time for me. It's sad, I don't think anyone wants to be my friend anymore.
I am so sick and tired of not having friends. When I'm always sitting around doing nothing with my time but wasting away and depending on people who want to go online for a bit to keep me a bit of company, I think that's sad. I have recently obtained two new friends. Not really new, just started talking to again. I can't hang out with neither. Why? Because they are a male. It's sad really. It's like I have a part of me who lives an online life; where I'm friends with everyone and can talk to everyone. And then, I shrink down to a piece of shit when I leave my computer and realize all these friends I have I can't hang out with any of them. I have plenty of reasons. I could probably come up with numerous reasons. I just wish I could be friends with people and it not be problem for ANYONE. But that will not of course ever happen and I'll sit here miserably. everynight when I'm bored and lonely.. I always always think of this shit. That's why every night I end up going to bed in a bad mood. I LIKED when I had to like plan out my days. It was so fun and everything was jampacked and I had no time for this shit. To sit around and think about shit. I HATE IT. I LOVE my boyfriend so much, and I understand why he doesn't want to me to hang out with any of my male friends but I just wish I could. I just wish there weren't any rules or restrictions that come along with a relationship. I try so hard to be the best girlfriend in the world and not to slip up. I let him go with his friends whenever he wants. (While I sit around doing nothing.) I give him any amount of money he asks for. I buy him whatever he wants if I know he really wants it, I pull connections out of my ass to help him. I listen to whatevers on his mind, and do whatever he asks me to do.
I just wish I had friends is all. I have one friend. Her name is Kendra. And she's so busy, she rarely has time for me. It's sad, I don't think anyone wants to be my friend anymore.